[He looks like she just slapped him. He feels like she just slapped him, and there's some horrible, painful emotion bubbling up in his chest that he can't quite identify, but he feels like it's choking him.

When he does find his voice, it's measured, trying to hold all that emotion back even though it's threatening to explode out of him.]

I know you're angry with me, and you have every right to be, and I'm sorry for what happened between us, Raven. Beyond sorry, and I wish there was something I could do to make it right. But you have no idea what we've been through, here, and I would never do anything to hurt him. The only reason we're both still sane is that we've had each other to rely on, and I can't- [His voice cracks with emotion before he cuts himself off, because he can believe it, though, but that doesn't stop the accusation from hurting, and he abruptly feels like he needs to get out of here. He desperately wants to fix things between them, but he can't do that if they get into a fight over this.]

All I want is for Erik to be safe, and happy, and off this godforsaken ship for good, but the only way that's going to happen is if he comes to his own decisions about what he wants to do. And if he never wants to change, I'm not going to try to force him into doing it, and I'm certainly not abandoning him here.