[ Tears are really threatening now. She hates it, crying at everything this way. It makes her feel so weak. ]
Because... then I didn't know better. I only knew worse. So it was perfect. And that's not right. All I wanted was you, I thought you were all I needed, but you didn't - you reached out to the world. Maybe that's just not fair of me.
[ Okay, that's better. She's steadying out now. Not quite on the edge of crying anymore. ]
I know it hurts, but I can't go back to being close to you, because I have to know that there are pieces of me that aren't just - you. That I can be good without it being because of you, and that I can be bad without it being despite you.
[ She's been thinking about it. A lot. And these aren't quite the words she rehearsed in her head, but it's close. It's not dissolving before she manages to say it. ]
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[ Tears are really threatening now. She hates it, crying at everything this way. It makes her feel so weak. ]
Because... then I didn't know better. I only knew worse. So it was perfect. And that's not right. All I wanted was you, I thought you were all I needed, but you didn't - you reached out to the world. Maybe that's just not fair of me.
[ Okay, that's better. She's steadying out now. Not quite on the edge of crying anymore. ]
I know it hurts, but I can't go back to being close to you, because I have to know that there are pieces of me that aren't just - you. That I can be good without it being because of you, and that I can be bad without it being despite you.
[ She's been thinking about it. A lot. And these aren't quite the words she rehearsed in her head, but it's close. It's not dissolving before she manages to say it. ]