[Which is why it's all so hard to explain. The fact that he loved her made it worse. It meant she kept reasoning it out, telling herself that he knew best, and that she should be happy for him whenever he accomplished something new. Whenever he got a little more life, and a little more achievement, and she spent another day smiling at strangers and carrying food and clinging to her control with fear bleating under every movement.]
Sometimes I thought I didn't exist at all, except to him.
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[Which is why it's all so hard to explain. The fact that he loved her made it worse. It meant she kept reasoning it out, telling herself that he knew best, and that she should be happy for him whenever he accomplished something new. Whenever he got a little more life, and a little more achievement, and she spent another day smiling at strangers and carrying food and clinging to her control with fear bleating under every movement.]
Sometimes I thought I didn't exist at all, except to him.