[ She doesn't, yet. But she's pushing. She's trying. ]
And now he thinks I didn't care, that I just left him and that I hate him, and I can't believe that if he hurt that much he never tried to seek me out. He never tried to use Cerebro and find me. And when I tell him I love him, he doesn't even hear it.
I don't know who I want to be, much less who I am, and I can't learn that when I'm so close to him. He doesn't understand how - much he is. How smart, and how powerful. And how that changes me, even if I don't want it to.
And when he hurts so much, it starts to feel like maybe it's just my fault, and I should just shut up and be the sister he wants.
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[ She doesn't, yet. But she's pushing. She's trying. ]
And now he thinks I didn't care, that I just left him and that I hate him, and I can't believe that if he hurt that much he never tried to seek me out. He never tried to use Cerebro and find me. And when I tell him I love him, he doesn't even hear it.
I don't know who I want to be, much less who I am, and I can't learn that when I'm so close to him. He doesn't understand how - much he is. How smart, and how powerful. And how that changes me, even if I don't want it to.
And when he hurts so much, it starts to feel like maybe it's just my fault, and I should just shut up and be the sister he wants.