Raven Darkholme | Mystique (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
permutates) wrote2013-08-17 09:17 pm
permutates) wrote2013-08-17 09:17 pm
5th transformation . spam & open video
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[ She's been working herself hard. Maybe too hard: she spends hours a day in the gym, sometimes as many as eight when she's not sleeping. She's read books on how to get in shape quickly and safely - more or less - and she's pushing herself as far as she can go. Trying to find her limits.
Today, she can also be found coming out of the CTS with Kelsier, bruised and mussed and a little bloody, and grinning ear to ear. If you're trying to impress me, it's working, he tells her, and she kisses him on the cheek and flushes bluer and makes her way to the Infirmary to make sure she's got nothing worse than bruises.
She hasn't reached her physical limits yet, but emotional is a different story. Being a child again, with that faith in Charles, has shaken her. Her conversation with Charles before that shook her. And sometimes, even when she's feeling fine - maybe when she's feeling the most fine, paradoxically - she starts crying. And sometimes she can't stop. Tucking herself into a corner of the gardens and trying to muffle the sounds of it so no one catches her at it. It's embarrassing, and she can always eventually manage to pull herself together and make it back to her room. ]
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[ Raven is blue, with red hair, not hiding. ]
What's something you've done here, for the first time? Or thought or realized, for the first time.
[ She's not sure what she's looking for. Maybe a little hope. ]
[ She's been working herself hard. Maybe too hard: she spends hours a day in the gym, sometimes as many as eight when she's not sleeping. She's read books on how to get in shape quickly and safely - more or less - and she's pushing herself as far as she can go. Trying to find her limits.
Today, she can also be found coming out of the CTS with Kelsier, bruised and mussed and a little bloody, and grinning ear to ear. If you're trying to impress me, it's working, he tells her, and she kisses him on the cheek and flushes bluer and makes her way to the Infirmary to make sure she's got nothing worse than bruises.
She hasn't reached her physical limits yet, but emotional is a different story. Being a child again, with that faith in Charles, has shaken her. Her conversation with Charles before that shook her. And sometimes, even when she's feeling fine - maybe when she's feeling the most fine, paradoxically - she starts crying. And sometimes she can't stop. Tucking herself into a corner of the gardens and trying to muffle the sounds of it so no one catches her at it. It's embarrassing, and she can always eventually manage to pull herself together and make it back to her room. ]
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[ Raven is blue, with red hair, not hiding. ]
What's something you've done here, for the first time? Or thought or realized, for the first time.
[ She's not sure what she's looking for. Maybe a little hope. ]
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Besides, it's not really her but the question that's important, because he told himself he would try to start looking at the good parts of this place. And there's one big one, right at the forefront of his mind:]
I saw Earth.
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I led. And some other stuff.
You?
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[ She's not sure she wants to say to him. She thinks he'll probably take them wrong. ]
What did you lead?
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Usually when people project a need to be left alone, she respects that - she'd want nothing else for herself, and this is the last place on the Barge where she wants to start a fight - but she finds herself...invested, in Raven. For much the same reason she's invested in Morgana (and many of the same reasons she was invested in Harley). She sees herself in her.
And she knows she isn't an easy person to be, that her life isn't easy to live.
She doesn't say anything, at first. Just eases herself into the same corner, sits down alongside Raven and grows the foliage a little dense to give them more privacy.]
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This doesn't even make sense! She feels fine. She's pulling away from Charles, and it feels like the right choice, most of the time. The people here don't even care that she's blue, that she's different. Or, they care, but it's survivable. She can be herself.
So why is she so sad?
When Ivy sits next to her, she tries to choke back the sobs and wipe away the tears, but it's like trying to hold sand, trying to hold water just in fingers alone.
This is when she realizes - she is thinking oddly clearly, even as her body hiccups any attempt at speech into utter incoherence, like she's watching the world through a distant, sharpening lens - that she hardly touches anyone now, and she used to touch Charles all the time. She used to hug, and hold hands, and snuggle up next to him.
This thought is what prompts her to take a gamble, to uncurl and lean her head against Ivy's shoulder. ]
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[ Like dead, she means. ]
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...I'm nine 'undred years old, my love, and I've done most things before. They still tend to be first every time, I find.
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And then Ben clicks the feed off.]
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Rogue was already into a long run loping run on the tread mill. She was working her stamina more than her speed, and she'd built up a decent sweat by now. She spotted Raven right off when she came in. It wasn't hard with the other woman being such striking colors.
She raised her hand in greeting and nodded. She wasn't all smiles for Raven, but she certainly wasn't being distant. This Raven had a chance to be something better than the one Rogue knew, and she wanted to encourage that.]
Hi.
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[ Her steps hesitate, but it's just a half-second. She's still not at all sure what to make of this other woman, or sure what Rogue wants from her. And there has to be something, right? She summons a smile, and then she moves to another treadmill, one a couple down from Rogue. Not next to her, not the farthest from her either. ]
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Made friends. Fell in love.
Fuck, did I seriously fucking say that.
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Yeah, uh-- a lot of first things. First friend that wasn't obligated, first truly reciprocated love affair, first... first times for--a lot of things. Most of them involving people.
[ He and Chris are barge family for a reason. Their lists line up very well. ]
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Morgana had meant to speak to her, had considered seeking her out. Maybe this is fate's answer to her procrastination.]
Is it just bruises?
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[ Morgana doesn't look much like a doctor, but Raven has decided not to take things on appearance in this barge.
She'll hop up on an exam table, unless Morgana indicates otherwise. ]
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Pushing a branch gently aside, he spots her and hesitates, abruptly bewildered and uncertain. She's crying. Why is she crying? Walking away now would look terrible, though, so he reluctantly takes a step forward, then another, and slowly sits himself down beside her.]
Are you all right?
[He wants to make sure she's not hurt first, though he doubts it and his tone reflects it.]
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[ This is an absolute and utter lie, broken by hiccup-y sobs, and a completely ineffective one. It's not really intended to convince Erik. Just give him a way out.
The last thing she wants is someone to feel obligated to comfort her, when she doesn't even really know why she's crying. ]
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[He pauses because he's not sure if he should just leave whoever it is alone or if he should check on them. After a moment, he reasons that checking on whoever doesn't mean he can't leave them be if they want and puts away the cigarette. Better to check than to just outright ignore. He's not that much of a dick.]
[Stark keeps a respectable distance once he finds Raven in the gardens.]
So dealer's choice here: I can either ask you what's wrong and stay or I can walk the other way and leave you alone. It's entirely up to you.
[He's not going to pretend like it never happened though. That's not an option.]
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But this is someone she trusts. For whatever reason. He reminds her of Erik: troubled, but with something at heart right about him.
She shifts over, leaving a little room on the bench beside her. ]
You can ask. But I don't really have an answer.
[ She sniffs, and wipes her eyes. ]
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[He hasn't had any realizations worth mentioning yet.]
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[She's not the Blue Lady. She just unfortunately looks like Her.]
Why are you asking?
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I just wanted to know if this place really is new opportunities, I guess.
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This is where I learned to fly. [Where she'd started, at least. She doubts she'd be doing it now, without her time on the Barge. Without Erik and Merlin.]
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She's not sure, though, how to phrase her biggest revelation. Not in public, anyway.]
I realised there are better ways to change the world.
[There, that works.]
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Sometimes it's a tall man in black who is far too pale to be alive.
Arthas just wants to see what she's capable of, mostly. Being able to guess how every warden will behave in a fight isn't necessary any more, but it is a nice hobby.]
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She's trying to ignore that anyone might be staring. She assumes it's because of the blue skin. ]
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[ She chews her thumbnail nervously, not sure how much she wants to share, but... She's supposed to be making friends. You make friends by sharing things, talking to people, taking risks. ]
And I thought that... maybe some of the things I learned in school were wrong.
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[She recognizes this seriousness, and thinks she deserves a serious answer.]
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