video . 9th transformation

[permutates]

[ private to anya, earlier ]

I heard that you were Magneto's daughter.

I guess I think you should know that I know.

[ public, later ]

[ The camera shows the teaching annexe, swings past a few doors and settles on a stretch of wall where - well, there's a door. And beyond is a place where something should probably be. Should definitely be, for anyone who knows the location of the ice rink. Instead, there's a block of blank concrete, behind the open door. ]

The rink is gone.

[ She's heard the voices, over the speakers. She sounds shaky. ]

What's happening?

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[private]

[permutates]

I... not exactly. I just want to be admired. Not - outcast.

[ She wants to be beautiful. Who doesn't? ]

[private]

[fridgetothefire]

[Her eyes fall and her voice goes soft, because it's too - resonant, to say loudly. Outcast, except they didn't send her away. She hated that most of all, that they didn't want her and kept her, so she had to live indefinitely surrounded by their contempt]

Just. To not be hated, or alone.

Yeah. When I was. Alive. That was all I wanted, at first.

[Before vengeance.]

[private]

[permutates]

What changed?

[ What more had she wanted? ]

[private]

[fridgetothefire]

I stopped...believing there was a chance that I'd ever not be alone.

[She usually thinks of it as one breaking point, the day Magneto told her to find Pietro or else. But really it was a double tap, that moment, and the one after, when Wanda chose someone who had already abandoned both of them over her.]

So I focused on other goals.

[private]

[permutates]

What about since you were here?

[private]

[fridgetothefire]

It took me awhile, to believe it. That people could care, that they could see me at all, that it wasn't just...a pleasant facade over the same callousness.

But it wasn't. I have friends now, and nobody hates me except for the people I've made hate me.

I'm happy.

[private]

[permutates]

Funny how something that says it's a prison can do that.

[private]

[fridgetothefire]

It never...felt like a prison, to me. It felt like being free of the one I was used to.

People react to it in a lot of different ways, me better than most.

[private]

[permutates]

I was so worried, before I got here...

[ That it was forcing Erik to be something he wasn't. ]

I guess that doesn't really matter anymore.